sometimes. . .

Sometimes I just can't believe this is life. There is such an un-reality to everything going on around me. My roles of father, teacher of children in my church, professional handyman and my role as a guy who just does things because they need to be done. I feel like the silent observer - observing even my interactions with others from a disconnect. For sure I feel - am effected by my interactions, but I am yet apart. The closest I feel I broach reality is with my son, but dealing with a 3yr old is it's own un-reality. Yet raising - taking part in a childs life has provided profound insight it defies reason -yet I believe, in large part, it has contributed to / triggered other disconnect.